Oscillating Between...
I have noticed that I have been oscillating between being cognitively functional and being cognitively impaired. If I had to diagnose myself based on how I have been over the past few months, I would say that I am somewhere in between Schizoaffective Disorder and Bipolar I Disorder, on the Psychosis Spectrum. It's kind of weird, because there have been atleast a couple of times where I felt completely better cognitively, but it only lasted for maybe 5-10 minutes and then just "went away". I just want to study more. Sometimes I find that I am able to study/memorize information, but most of the time I cannot study at all. If I try to study anyway, when I feel this way, it does not matter how many times I repeat one thing/sentence in my mind - I cannot remember any of it. It's not like studying is more difficult for me during these prolonged periods of time; it is a complete absence/inability/lack thereof.
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